While I know that on FaceBook my life appears perfect, the truth is that my life is an insane mix of sweet, innocent beauty and some of the hardest times through which I have ever walked.
On one hand, I have the extreme joy of rocking our tiny one. I have marveled at the wonder of her for hours. I can be home these first 12 weeks with little responsibility outside of my family. It is a sweet, sweet time.
I am so thankful.
The kind of thankful that causes my breathe to catch and my eyes to cloud over many times a day.
Deeply, crazily thankful.
On the other hand is a situation that is breaking my heart, causing me to sleep fitfully, and question many, many things.
In the midst of this paradox, I read these words, "That which I refuse to thank Christ for, I refuse to believe He can redeem." (Ann Voskamp, of course.)
Those words will not leave me.
So though my heart is breaking and I am afraid, I thank you, Jesus, for this journey we are traveling. I know with complete certainty that You will redeem this. Each step we take brings us closer to Your redemption, and so I thank You for each and every one.
