It has been a hard couple of days.
I am watching Joshua grieve and it hurts.
It is not as deep or intense as it was when he first came home, but he has moments of grief just the same.
It is not constant, but comes in surprising bursts.
His grief does not show itself when we are busy or in public... whose does?
His grief shows itself in floods of tears over things that he would normally not be bothered by... and the tone of the cry is not anger or frustration or hungry or cranky, but sadness.
His grief shows itself in keeping too busy and too active.
His grief shows itself in Amharic songs.
His grief shows itself in irritability and whining.
His grief shows itself in waking many times in the night.
His grief shows itself in a neediness that can not be satisfied.
His grief grieves my heart.
Please pray for my boy... and his momma.
PS I know this sounds like normal 2 year old behavior, he is my 5th 2 year old. The behavior is the same, the emotions behind it are very different.
