"May the God of hope fill you with great joy and peace as you trust in him." Romans 15:13

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Regrets


Insight 2: Simplify Your Life from Tapestry on Vimeo.

When I look back over our journey in these past months, my one regret is that I did not feel EMPOWERED to simplify. We did simplify, but I did not feel empowered during that time. I felt stressed. Stressed because so many wanted to know, hold, and enjoy Joshua - while we requested they wait.

Now that it is pretty much over, I am really proud of the hard decisions we made. I am proud and thankful that we worked so hard to parent in a new, different, fairly isolated way. Chad and I have no doubt that it was exactly what we all needed. My regret is that I could not trust myself. I regret that I felt so totally stressed by the disapproval of a few people. Those months of simplified family time were so beautiful. We all grew incredibly close and made so many wonderful memories. It is unfortunate that I did not fully embrace each moment. I did not sink in and savor them nearly as much as I should have. Instead I rushed. I questioned my instincts. I felt guilty.

So my advice to you? Don't rush. Don't feel guilty. Don't question... even if others do. Those first months together can not be redone. There is no rewind button. If you need to simplify, do it joyfully. Savor every moment. Trust your instincts. And if your decisions are not popular or understood, by all means let it go!